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wow... i have not writen in this thing in a long long time... i was reading my previous entrees and its hard to believe that it has been a year since all this... yesterday it was our 1 year together and i could not ask for anything better.... i love you. you make me complete! |
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wow ... i sooo haven't written in this thing for a long time...... a long time but heather .......... you are sooo right .... lve journal soooo died!!! gooooooooooooooo my space!!! that is it for now..... i love you baby (art) you are the best thing ever and i want you to know that i do..... i love you soooo much !!
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Ok soooo yesteday was my birth day !! it was the best day of my life i came i and the coffee house was decorated sooo nice. i love what u did to ths palce baby i loved it! i was having such a shitty day my parents did not remeber my birthday my friends forgot about it exept for claudia. one of thm wrote me a fucked up e-mail. saying happy birth day! i guess calling is not in no more? one of them did not call me at all and DAN ahssssss you did not call or stop by or nothing that broke my heart! que sad!! but Arthur u made up for all that! thank you soooo much i love u sooooo much baby i cant xplain!this had to be one of the most horrible but beautiful birthdays ever!!! thank you sooo much to every one who made this day awsome!! and this weekend should be even better than that day ! i love u all soooo much i will alas keep this memories with me... i'll update monday about all this batter........ pooh bear, guguly bear you are so awsome there are no words to describe how feel about you !
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I love the way you drive.
So quiet so peaceful, just you.
I love the way you open the door for me.
Reminds me that there are still gentlemen.
You are a true definition of that.
I love the way you are.
So caring, so warm.
So you, no cares, just smiles.
Laugh. Cry. You.
I love the way you are just you.
God made you and held you,
Then the angel came.
Touched your lips and told you not to speak.
Not to reveal the beauty of the kingdom.
I love the way you love me.
Honest, sweet, the way it should be.
I love the way we spend so much time together.
It’s only been a tick.
A crack, A second in time and we are so much in love.
I love the way you hold me.
Your arms around me,
Holding me tight.
No better place in the world that that.
I love the way you kiss me.
Your lips so warm on mine.
Remind me that I am still alive.
I love the way you touch my hand.
When we are silent it reminds me that words are not the oly way to talk.
I love the way you touch my face.
We could be surrounded by thousands of people
That makes me feel like if I am the only one In the room.
The only one in the world.
I love the way you laugh.
So loud, so clear, so calm,
You laugh, I laugh, breath, start over, laugh!
I love it when you hold my hand.
I use to make fun of couples doing that.
So ridiculous, so cliché, now I am one of them,
I’m in love, now I understand.
I love the way you love me.
You care for me like no one else,
You do things that no one else has done,
You have opened me to new experiences.
You gave me a different life.
I love it when you are silent.
You say so many things to me just by the way you look at me.
The way you move your head,
The way you smile so shyly.
The way you lean over and put your head on my shoulder.
I love the way you tell me you love me.
So sincere, with no fear,
makes my heart skip a beat.
I love the way you run your fingers thru my hair.
So relaxed, makes me laugh, makes me fall asleep.
I love the way you stare.
Your eyes in mine, get a glimpse of my soul.
Know me all, you don’t run.
I love the way you let me be me.
So dorky, so funny, so full of love.
So full of you.
I love the way you take care of me when I am sick.
The way you hold me and rub my tummy until it feels ok.
I love the way you love.
God, the world, your family, me,
you too.
I love the way you drive.
Looking forward.
Loud music.
Poring rain.
Pause.
Silence.
Held my hand .
Kissed my lips.
So quiet so peaceful,
just you.
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wow it feels like if i havent written in such a long long time.... thing have been getting better ..... and life seems to be geting a little bit nicer... so yeah.. last week this super acward thing happened... i think i lost a friend and i honestly dont think its my fault well at least not all of it... i guess the hole thing just got out of control.. so i just wanna say.......... if you have a great friend in your life never let them go and say i love you all the time........... but make shure you mean it... Lizzy my beautiful puppy love i dont know if you read my journals but i just wanna say sorry 4 everything and that i love you and i miss you ............... for what its worth i love you friend and i mean it........... things with the artsypoopypants are going awsome!!! like wow.. we spend all this weekend together and all i have to say is that this is the best relationship ever! he takes care of me soooo goooood i love him soooo much. i have done things that i have never done with anyone.. we cook together.... watch movies ........hang out at the coffee house do home work together talk about all sorts of things... so yeah...... hummmm this weekend we say 2 movies the exorsism of emily rose and the 40 year old virgin.... the firts one was sooo efen scary i had to sleep with the lights on!! lol it was kind of silly but i could not sleep..... lol i hate it !!!!! the second one was sooooo good!! i though it was gonna be super stupid but nope... it was sooooo good!!!!!! hum i think that is is.... i love you all !! more you my artsipoopypants! thank you baby 4 this great weekend.............
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haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. i am soooo mad i had an awsome journal!! for today it talked about how much i hate people and how mad i have been lately.. well now i am even more mad since my brother lend out my computer and erased everything....... haaaaaaaaaaaaa........ i dont know what my problem is lately but i have just been angry......you killed samsun!!!!!
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I went to the movies today... i cant remember the last time i went.... i think it was star wars... or something like that?? n/e who.... i went to go see The Corpse Bride today it was hummmm nice... a little predictable.. but nice. I laughed, got bored, got back in to the movie laughed a little bit more then at the end i almost cryed... ALMOST !! i was with art soooo i didnt want him to think that i was a woos..... soooo yeah.... ahhhh Jonny is soooo HOT even in a cartoon!! ha! that is sooo crazy! i love it. but not as hot as u pooh. what else? hummmmm i ate soo much that i think my stomach is about to explode! i ate popcorn and candy and nachos, and more candy and DP and well soooo much !! it was crazy!!! haaaaaaaaa my stomach hurts i think i am gonna throw it all up... well things have been soo hectic arround the coffee house!! its been sooooooo crazy i have been getting mad at the guys the place is a mess all th time the guys have an attitude problem.... the only one that i like is Leandra and Tasha... gosh.. the guys totaly suck.. they think they can do what ever when ever with who ever !! its soooo bad but next week charly he is sooo awsome!!! but n/e ways what else??? .... i think that is is.... over all i give the movie 2 thumbs up!! but i still like The nightmare before X-mas wayyyyy better!!!!! humm things with the pooh man are sooo good!! i love u ! ok ! humm i think that is it!   haaaa i love victor and victoria!!
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Running out of time and out of life.....
Wow... I haven updated this thing in... well
just days :( silly me.... well this past week was hell .. work and work
and work) have u noticed i do that all the time) then school ... but
that is not so bad? things at work seem to be getting a little
better.... just a little and my life at times feels like if its so out
of controll ,,, i have been doing so many stupid things, things that i
sayed that i would never do.. I conpletly let my self down but most of
all I let God down.
all i can do now id just put my head down and walk with it like that
until i decide to get hings straght with God... i know i have to hurry
up because i feel like if i am running out of time and out of
life...and i honestly hurts me to my bones being like this... not
talking to God and avoiding his voice in the back of my head telling me
"come back and stop it" I know i am gonna end up hurting my self and i
dont want to.... Gosh this it hard... on a lighter note.... Things with
the "cookie monster"
are going better every day... i love you so much baby i am so glad that
you are in my life and i am so rry if this last week was hard on both
of us i nkow that we are better that all this and that we'll get thu
this so.......... yeah...
Lizzy my dear
puppy love ... I am happy to know that you are doing better, i miss you
so much frriend and i am so.... sorry that we haven't hung out lately,
we have been so out of touch and i am sorry i feel like if its all my
fault. but i promise that we will start hanging out more often ok i
love you so much puppy love
I cant wait for winter to
finaly get here!! i am so anxious, its the best part of the year!! and
its the best time to have some one by your side to hold you wen you are
cold and to wear matching beanies! hahah ;) i love it and i promise
that this winter we will have a blast.... YOUR winter will be awsome with me by your side i promise...
Chris leaves tommorow... i know you werent
officialy my friend but Atr loves you like a brother. So i just wanted
to say that i hope tat you have a great time and for you to be safe,
study hard and buy an extra alarm clock .... i hope to see you soon....
God Bless you!! hummm what else........... i think that is it..... i'll
try to write more often but its kind of hart with the crazy hrs. i am
working... soooooooooo yeah.. bye i love you all ...
 I love you MY BEAUTIFUL COOKIE MONSTER,,, HAHAHAHA
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The best date ever:
Well what can i say you have done it again... one mor eperfect day, one more day for me to remeber you by... i cant bealive it, you are everything i dreamed of and more...thank you for everything that you do for me... i love the way you care for me, like no one else has ever cared and you still think that spain is gonna tear us apart? ha!! i say to that... baby i apreciate that you took me to the art museum today . i know its not one of your things but,I know that we rushed thu it but it was un-believeable.. just having you there by my side. all the beautiful things that we saw together, i apreciate that you see interest in the things i like, and as much as i think that your "chipmunk" is weird i love it. And i would not change it for a thing... i love that you teach me so many new and different things and i hope that you learn from me too.. i love you pooh bear ..
Then said a teacher, "Speak to us of Teaching." And he said:
No man can reveal to you aught but that which already lies half asleep in the dawning of our knowledge. The teacher who walks in the shadow of the temple, among his followers, gives not of his wisdom but rather of his faith and his lovingness. If he is indeed wise he does not bid you enter the house of wisdom, but rather leads you to the threshold of your own mind. The astronomer may speak to you of his understanding of space, but he cannot give you his understanding. The musician may sing to you of the rhythm which is in all space, but he cannot give you the ear which arrests the rhythm nor the voice that echoes it. And he who is versed in the science of numbers can tell of the regions of weight and measure, but he cannot conduct you thither. For the vision of one man lends not its wings to another man. And even as each one of you stands alone in God's knowledge, so must each one of you be alone in his knowledge of God and in his understanding of the earth.
 
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Que pinchi sad..... gosh today i just found out that some of my friends got married and some of them are getting married next month.. my friend Gabi got married this pasted saturday....i didn't go to the wedding cuz i was "sick" yup.... sick of envy.... well ... what can i say? i am happy been single.. well kind of single.... Art .... you know .. i love you baby.... k well i dont know what else to tell you
DAN!!! I HOPE YOU ARE FINE !!!IF YOU NEED ANYTHING YOU KNOW WERE I AM AT!! I LOVE YOU ! 
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Gosh: let me just start by saying that i am like totaty madly deeply in love with this man... its so crazy all the litte things he does and all the things he says its so.... crazy .... crazy i tell you... i love everything about him... his smile... his laugh. the way he holds me and the way he looks at me ..... its breath taking.... UN-believable ( yea i took that one from him) (lol) i am just sooo amaized by the way he is... so caring and charming and everything a girl could ever want. I mean ...... Art you are so caring and sweet and warm you are so..... what is that word??? " fantasmagorical" lol gosh i love you like sooooooo much!!!! its so ridiculous! i love the way you look at me and the way you play with my hair, the way you lick my face trying to gross me out ( you do) lol i love the way you make me feel and the way you rub your leg against mine...... gosh i love the way you look when you first open up you eyes to the way you lick your lips the way you shake your head sayin " whats wrong" and the way you put your arm in the back of your head when you are borded....... the way you wiggle your toes and the way you bite you bottom lip.......... the way you pick your glases and make that weird face.... the way you scratch you arms when all those mosquitoes bite you. and the way your eyes get all red when you are super tired.... but still by my side........ the way you shake your head and laugh ( i know you do this when its not funny but you dont wanna be mean) your half smile its totaly beautiful.......... Beautiful i know..... I love the way you look when you are asleep so peacefull and gracefull full of beautiful dreams.. it just makes me wonder if i am in any of them and it makes me jelows.... i love you sooo much. it hurts in side ( you know what i mean) it makes me wanna cry... I am sooooooo blessed to have you in my life ....thank you God i dont know why you do this things and have me so spoiled. i dont understand Lord ? but I promise to take this as a blessing and not take one sigle breath or smile or day with him forgranted........ its times like this ( you on the couch asleep) that i am glad i am still alive and that God did not take my life that nigth... i know that there is a purpose in my life and i know that you are one of them.... i know eople take this word forgranted but i cant think of a better one to say BABY I TRULY HONESTLY, WITH TEARS IN MY EYES LOVE YOU .......
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So... whats new? in my life not much same old thing...... coffee house, coffee house, and more coffee house.... yeah.. gosh this last week was so hectic...... so......yeah.. i feel like crap........ and i want to go home.... so yeah...
In other news... me and the pooh bear are doing so.... good!! i am so glad that i have him in my life. HEY you, you make me so happy and i love you sooooo much ! thank you for all the things that you do for me!! and all the amazing things that you tell me! you make me feel beautiful all the time even when i know i look like crap, and even if i feel sick or sad or what ever you make me happy just by being around me and by letting me be a dork with you ......... last night i had a blast =. but its crazy when it just you and me the whole world runs a little faster i think time is jealous of what we have.... Lizzy:  |
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 ok that is it for today!! |
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Ok.......... so i have had such a long... long.... week ........ like super super long...... and you know what the funniest thing is.... that at times the people we dont really know that bring some incouragement in to our lifes..... Heather, thank you... i know you read my journals and that is so sweet but for you to leave messeges you go out of your way... i love the one that you left yesterday and yes you are right... we glorify God thru our actions and you know something lately i havent.. he gave me the blessing of having Art by my side and at times i take it forgranted.... I have been doing all the things that i am not suppose to be doing like cursing nd drinking and other bad stuff that i know that i am not suppose to be doing but still I do ... ( i think i have a problem)and i know what it is... i need God back in my life.... And i would apreciate if you guys could pray for me And i want to thank you Art for making me a little bit happier over the last couple of months ... And you know what sucks more.........that mi friends tell me all the time that they are gonna be here for me and i think they forgot that i existed..... that sucks!!! oh well que sad
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Gosh.... All this year has been nothing but battles and strugles and at times it just seems like if this whole world is coming to an end ..... (silence)....... (sight)...........(eyes get watery)......... (silence) man its been such a long time since i can actualy sleep more than 5 hrs. with out me tossing and turning..... i dont know what is going on in my head..... i think that i need to sleep with out some one walking in to my room and asking loudly "are you opening today, because its already 4:00" gosh... fot the love of God i go in till 6:00 ....... i just went to bed like 2 hrs. ago... 30 more min... please... and i pray for time to pass me by sooooo slowly........ but it seems that even God wants me to get up sooner.. Fine!!! I am up...I'm up.... I can hardly get up... falling over things on the floor... turn on the ligth.haaaaaaa i cant see anything... and out side its still pitch back......... i wonder when the sun is coming out? soon i hope, its cold...... get in the car... turn on the "butt heaters" gosh i hate having leather seats..... in the morning they are too cold in the afternoon i burn the hell out of my ass ,,, it even makes me scream.....drive .. drive... drive.. again.... get to work... open the door.. run the alarm is gonna go off.... punch in the numbers.safe........turn on the lights make shure no monsters are around..lol...nope just me and.....got supper buzy i'll continue later........... |
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 ah.... I knew it! no wonder why you wanted to take me to go see him... because you love him too....
ok let me star the story... i love you more now than ever!!!
let me tell you that he got me tickets to go see Mark Anthony and Chayanne and the thing is that he didnt know who ether one of them was!! lol but i think that he ws supper in to it specialy when he started screaming : chayanne!!!" supper loud!! it was the funniest thing ever!!!! gosh.... i love it!!
Art thank you soooooo much for taking me to the consert plus Luis
Miguel is Going to be way better lol!!! hahahaahaha well gotta go !!
THANK you for everything!!! and for making me sooooo happy
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OK......OK..... I GIVE IN.....I LOVE YOU........... So let me tell you..... today its been 2 Months that i have had an "agreement" with art and let me tell you that it as been the best 2 months of my life hahaha ... i have had so much fun !! i love all the crazy things that we have done togehter... from hanging out 2 to 3 times a day to the time when you left out of town gosh i missed you so ..... much!!and well let me tell you..... i fell in love with you so.... fast!!! its so crazy i have never felt this way about any one!! i guess i am a little scared but its nothing but crazy crazy crazy times with you ................. and i love all those times .. all the time that we are together the times that we share when no one is arround.. i apreciate al the things you do for me.. and i will never forget all the things you do for me.... hey,,, hey .... can you see this? hey can you hey!!! hey/!!!! i love you.. and thank you for all the awsome things you do for me....... i love you my baby pooh bear.... pooh... poopipants ,,poohpants etc....  Look At This Beautiful Face.....
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My Dearest Friend Lizzy:
I am so sorry for your loss...There are so, so many
things I wish I could tell you right now but I know that nothing can
take away this pain and suffering from your heart. I just wanted to say
that I am sorry for your loss and that I don’t know what it is to lose
a brother or a sister, but I bet that its one of the most heart
breaking things in the world? I hope that you know that I love you very
much and that you have become so dear to my heart
and that I love you so much, you are a great person, so caring and so
sweet, your smiling face can warm up any ones heart! And please
understand that if you ever, ever need anything you can always count on
me!!! I am so proud of you, of everything that you have become, and I
know that you brother will see all that you are from heaven and be
happy and thankful with God for making you the way that you are!
I am not too good when it
comes to the “mushy” feeling stuff and at times I know that I can be a
pain in the butt but friend I want you to know that you can always
count with me! Because I know that I can always count with you. I know
that God has big plans for you and me and that thanks to Claudia we
became good friends, I know that God can never be wrong! And if he
chose to take your brother with him was with a purpose…. I know that
things are kind of blurry right now and that you can’t see the purpose
right now but soon you will look back to this day and say …. Man I had
such a bad day my brother passed away that day but if it was not for
that …….. So far and so forth…. Friend please understand that all of us
care about you and for your family so much and in this time of sorrow
and pain all I ca say is hold you head up high and look up to the
heavens and say to God than you for taking my brother with you … or he
is in you arms now… and he is in a much better place! I know one day
you will see him and he will remember your beautiful face.
I guess all that I am trying to say is
that I am here for you and that I know that it may not be much but I
want you to know that I love you with all of my heart and that God will
give you tomorrow to make a better day out of it! I know you will never
forget your brother. And I want you to know that even though I never
meet him I can honestly tell you tat I am sad that such an important
person in your life is gone.
Till that day al I can say is WAIT
IN GOD FOR ONE DAY YOU WILL BE WITH YOUR BROTHER IN FRON OF HIM AND YOU
WILL BE SO HAPPY THAT YOU ARE GONNA THINK THAT THIS WORLD WAS JUST A
JOKE….
On Joy & Sorrow
Then a woman said, "Speak to us of Joy and Sorrow."
And he answered:
Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes
filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can
contain.
Is not the cup that hold your wine the very cup that was burned in the
potter's oven?
And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was
hollowed with knives?
When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is
only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that
in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.
Some of you say, "Joy is greater than sorrow," and others say, "Nay,
sorrow is the greater."
But I say unto you, they are inseparable.
Together they come, and when one sits alone with you at your board,
remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.
Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy.
Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.
When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver,
needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall.  Cant wait to see you smile again my dear friend
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SO I AM AT THE COFFEE HOUSE, AGAIN.....
I AM LIKE SUPPER HAPPY BECAUSE MY COUSINS ARE IN TOWN!!! YEAH.. I A SO
EXITED! WE ARE GONNA DO SO MANY COOL THINGS ! I HAVENT SEEN THEM IN
SUCH A LONG TIME I'LL POST SOME PICTURES OF THEM LATER!
HEY FRIEND LIZZY I love
you and i am so glad that you are here for me...
So me and the man were talking
and he was telling me that he was so glad that i am talking to my
sister again (long story on why we stoped talking) so i am like supper
happy that we are friends again !! after all she is my sister and i
love her....this one is for you sis....
On Friendship
And a youth said, "Speak to us of Friendship."
Your friend is your needs answered.
He is your field which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving.
And he is your board and your fireside.
For you come to him with your hunger, and you seek him for peace.
When your friend speaks his mind you fear not the "nay" in your own mind, nor do you withhold the "ay."
And when he is silent your heart ceases not to listen to his heart;
For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed.
When you part from your friend, you grieve not;
For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as
the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain.
And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the
spirit.
For love that seeks aught but the disclosure of its own mystery is not
love but a net cast forth: and only the unprofitable is caught.
And let your best be for your friend.
If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also.
For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill?
Seek him always with hours to live.
For it is his to fill your need, but not your emptiness.
And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.
For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.
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